Forgive me God

God, I'm sorry. I've never experienced anything like this. my heart. my heart faltered. I should not be like this. I should not be selfish. but I feel comfortable. when I think back, I indirectly give false hope but I do not want to. pure feelings hurt just the same to me. I mean, God? yes, it can be said like that. but God, You know why I like this right? give the clue :(